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[Dec. 26th, 2007|07:31 pm] |
fuck it.
fuck a lot of things.
in fact, fuck everything. life's so goddamn stressful. friends can turn out really goddamn shitty. sometimes i fucking can't stand my life, my job, and the fact that i cut off a lot of goddamn people out of my life.
i want to stop smoking weed. haha, yeah, that's gonna happen.
there's some sort of common denominator between you and everyone you meet. which, if visible, would be the most amazing site to man. |
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[Jul. 4th, 2007|06:51 pm] |
you know what's funny
i could explain myself, and i could explain my reasoning, but i don't have to
for the first time in forever, i don't have anybody i have to report to
it's awesome
i'm so fucking glad i'm single, it's not just the girls, it's the freedom. the ability to be able to go and do whatever i fucking want. after a year of that shit, just wow. i forgot what it's like.
thank you to all my friends who opened my eyes. i'll never be able to thank you enough.
she still plays her games, she still talks her shit, but to be honest it doesn't even bother me anymore. it's amazing, refreshing.
i'll explain my theories later.
but for now, it's 6:47, im making 30 bucks an hour, i've got a nice car, i've got a great job, i've got some great friends.
thanks again |
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[Jun. 22nd, 2007|02:38 pm] |
you've tried this before.
and now you've tried it again.
and to think we were friends.
the best kind of revenge is the kind that takes months, and it may make way slowly, but when it does it will be the biggest wake-up call you've ever had. because this will be the one wake-up call that puts you the fuck back to sleep.
fucker. |
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[Jun. 20th, 2007|02:53 pm] |
Karma will get me?
That's really funny.
Karma will get me for this:
Breaking up with a girl when the time was right. Breaking up with a girl when I had been treated like complete dog shit for months. Breaking up with a girl for controlling every aspect of my life. Breaking up with a girl because she was physically and mentally abusive. Breaking up with a girl who has mental issues that she needs to work out.
Karma will also get me for:
Doing the same thing she does, threatening her life after she threatened mine, moving on, trying to push her away to make her realize that the relationship is over.
That's what karma will get me for. I guess you're karma aren't you. Spreading your "truths" where convenient and leaving out the details of how you were the reason we fell apart. Don't take blame for any of this. Because you don't take blame for anything that goes wrong in your life. Don't tell people the truth of how the past month you didn't treat me like i should be. I treated you like gold. I did things you wanted to do. I drove back and forth 100 miles during your birthday week. Obviously because I don't give a shit and I never did.
Don't you see? You're not making any of this better. I wasn't having sex with her when I was on the phone with you. It was a joke. You were harassing me and I was doing everything I knew to keep you away.
You will probably drag this on. And talk so much shit about me. Drag my name through every single word in the book. Honestly, I don't care. I can see through it, and so can anybody else with a level head.
Have fun getting your rebound boy who believes every word coming out of your mouth about me. Hey, who knows, it might get interesting and he'll want to fight me. I can only hope that will be the case. That would be a lot of fun.
Whatever the case, you really just need to quit. This isn't helping anything. You're just looking for attention.
Just stop. Move on. There are other things in life besides me.
Have fun Laura, I cared a lot about you. But sometimes feelings, love, and kindness fade away after a while. And that's just the case here. You treated me like shit, I stopped caring about you. It's an even trade, and pretty fair in my opinion. We don't know why we react the way we do, but we do react. And that was me, reacting.
I loved you at one time. Hell, I would've done anything for you. You were such a sweet girl. I don't know what happened to her, hopefully one day she'll be back. Until then, I won't talk about the Laura I know now, and I'd hope she just doesn't talk about me.
I'll walk away. I hope you will too. |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2006|08:24 pm] |
After a lot of weighting out situations, careful thinking, some planning, considering pros and cons, I've decided that the navy is not for me.
I joined for the wrong reasons, and those reasons are only known by me. It was an impulsive and misguided decision. The Navy made a lot of promises that I later found out they couldn't guarantee or keep, they fed me some lies from day one and I should have stopped there.
I've decided to go for my RN (and more) at PJC starting January. First starting w/ phlebotomy so I can actually start working in a hospital environment. Plus, Sacred Heart has some great deals going, and apparently they always do. Doesn't sound half bad. Plus medical field benefits are amazing (on and off contract).
Laura is an amazing girlfriend, and a very supportive friend at the same time. She means so much to me, I don't know where I'd be without her at this point.(ilysm boo)
So now til January, when I start PCF, my schedule will consist of work, Laura, and being around the people who I've seen actually give a fuck about me. And unfortunately, that's not a lot. Sad truth, but a common one for everyone.
Slowly but surely everything is coming back on track. Me and my mom get along a lot better, I'm actually talking to my dad, I'm finally starting school (i feel like a lazy asshole on this one), and I'm finally realizing what I want to do as a career. It's pretty nice figuring things out and having some stucture for once. It's been way too long. |
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[Sep. 18th, 2006|11:25 am] |
so, i know what im buying myself for christmas
specs
that is just awesome, the best pda out right now. cannn'ttt waiittt |
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